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Maybe I can get to the point where I am like the Eddie Murphy role of Velvet Jones in ‘Saturday Night Live’ where he pimps his hot new book “How To Be A Ho”…… ” Ladies, you can do this in the comfort of you own bed!” I imagine thousands of gals signing up, flocking to my website with urges aplenty, waiting for assignments. I rake in the cash and get to have my own fun for free………..all from the comfort of Their Beds! Because of my intimate position in their lives, we recline, following the hottest sex, and they tell me thier innermost fantasies. I learn more than the average Sex God. Um, OK, sure.
Or, more to the point, maybe I can find out more about sexuality in real ways. What the hell. Discovering “what women want” will always be a refreshing, challenging and seemingly always at least partly painful process. There is pain in growth, otherwise no incentive. There is sloppy discomfort in things like “letting go” of someone who feels a need to try something new, or who is attracted by the green grass of the “next exciting thing”. There is always pain in growing wiser. And you can always get wiser. We possess such vague and simple preconceptions about sexuality at the start. There are no educators outside the bodies and minds of our mates. We discover the fantasies alive in the world by accident, often…..it sets us on fire for a while and then we feel the need to close the windows to these possibilities, owing to guilt or a sense of inadequacy or just opwing to a need for change, summoined up from way deep inside us. We stumble along.
Sexual fantasies span a massive and wide range. The more prominent ones we encounter I guess, are the ones where we meet someone and develop a relationship. This would be the ‘love and marriage’ fantasy, a virtual archetype that just floods us with information from the time we are born. Next, we encounter real sex and here the action begins. Oral sex fantasies, fantasies inviolving various part of the body, from toes to asses to mouths, we encounter them and they begin fascinating us. Domination fantasies are among the more intriguing, currently, to me. I think it is my maleness that does not even allow me to consider being a slave to someone. I mean, there are males for whom this works, cuckold fantasies (which, in truth might be some others as well), fantaises of being dominated by a strong and black-suited woman. These are cool, just not my thing, really. What fascinates me more than any right now are those fantasies so many women seem to have, of domination by a father figure, an older or maybe simply a a stronger, male. Or just being dominated by the nearest and best thing. If this seems crude and random as a concept, forgive me. I am attempting to understand something myself and am, in a way, asking for feedback to get there with, if nothing else.
In terms of sheer erotic value, the slave fantasy has alot going for it. Obviously, it serves both parties and is a “gateway fantasy” to a huge range of possibilities, anal, oral, bound and gagged, or even, in some cases (and I have been here) acting out in reality the demands of a dominant one. Rape fantasies may even be a part of these, something a surprising number of ladies speculate on, late at night. But the fantasy of utter compliance and being dominated has become popular. It may just be that it is an internet phenomenom, there is always that chance. Lord knows, I spend enough time on the net any more and I may heve encountered a biased field of horny and needy people. (And, to be honest, there is obviously no reason to exclude myself from this category, lol.) In chats with women, this fantasy rears its head deep into an erotic discourse and seems almost inevitable. Naturally, some women pursue it avidly, while others enjoy moving on to a more comfortable fucking. But then there comes a time when a foray into more taboo realms appeals to most: mulitple partners using a gal, oral fascinations (mouth-fucking, gagging, swallowing cum, wearing it), cock worshipping on it’s own, an afternoon of just sucking a cock or two and, in general getting well-used. Thoroughly and utterly used. This tiptoes around issues of cruelty and rape fantasies and comprises some fairly hot fantasy sex. The notion the internet provides is the proximity to the actual availability of fantasy fulfillment and provides immediate satisfaction for exploring all this. It even has the ultimately sexy possibility of it actually happening, a hair-raising and moisture producing temptation. End Part 1